March 10, 2009

• Shine on You Crazy Diamond

  Remember when you were young, you shone like the sun.

  Shine on you crazy diamond.
  Now there's a look in your eyes, like black holes in the sky.
  Shine on you crazy diamond.
  You were caught on the cross fire of childhood and stardom,
  Blown on the steel breeze.
  Come on you target for faraway laughter, come on you stranger,
  You legend, you martyr, and shine!

  You reached for the secret too soon, you cried for the moon.
  Shine on you crazy diamond.
  Threatened by shadows at night, and exposed in the light.
  Shine on you crazy diamond.
  Well you wore out your welcome with random precision,
  Rode on the steel breeze.
  Come on you raver, you seer of visions, come on you painter,
  You piper, you prisoner, and shine!

  Nobody knows where you are, how near or how far.
  Shine on you crazy diamond.
  Pile on many more layers and I'll be joining you there.
  Shine on you crazy diamond.
  And we'll bask in the shadow of yesterday's triumph,
  And sail on the steel breeze.
  Come on you boy child, you winner and loser,
  Come on you miner for truth and delusion, and shine!
  -Pink Floyd

  This song speaks to me when I'm feeling crazy and downright skeptical about the world and my life. Sometimes I just don't trust lots of the people around me and how they may affect my life and future. Hell, often my faith in myself and the decisions I make wavers and breaks. I want to be strong. I want to be excited about life. I want to have something to drive me to succeed. That's just it... I know that I can do great and succeed at anything I set my mind to, but then I ask myself , why? What's the point? More money...more stuff...more bullshit...

  I just have to convince myself that everything is worth it.... that everything I'm doing has a good reason. I want to surround myself with more positive people. It gets hard living in LA. I do love this place for many reasons, but it's hard to take people seriously around these parts. I've always been an observer. I've always been the one to sit quietly and watch and listen...85% of the time I hate what I see and hear. Who knows...maybe people are unlikeable everywhere, but a part of me really wants to doubt that. It might seem like I live some sort of lavish and interesting life...I fucking do, but lavish and interesting don't always = good.

  Sorry for being a Negative Nelly. I'm not a robot. I'm a fucking human being. Well...sometimes I don't feel like a human. I look at people and think....there's no way that I'm remotely related to them...there's no way I'm a part of this species. Bah...

  On a bipolar note, here's a funny video.
  

  I didn't want anyone to leave my blog on a negative note.

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